I was told by a woman at a yard sale we had that one time she had heard " If Satan isn't testing you and your faith he must be leading you or walking beside you". And honestly right now I am kind of feeling like it is time for him to move on and start testing else where. It feels like this past year as been one test after another and while I want to crawl in my bed and hide out until the storm passes I refuse to give up. I refuse to just feel okay there is nothing that will change this there is no way to make it better or make it all work out. I don't know why sometimes we feel picked on. (Ha funny visual big spooky devilish type chasing after my family like a bully on the play ground.) I don't know when we will get a break from it all, but in a way I am thankful for the testing, it shows me that we must be on the right track. It shows me that the more we try to reach our goal of going to the temple the more we get thrown at us to try and set that goal back one more day, year, whatever....GIVE UP mister Satan man, we are not yours to take, have, keep whatever our family belongs to heavenly father.
most recent testing...
Last night Dylan came home from his dads with saw dust in his eye so off to the ER we went to find that it had scratched it. He had been working cutting down trees with nothing to eat ALL day long and "forgot" to give him his meds. He will be fine but I wish his father would protect him more. he wants to join the Coast guard and his eyes are the most important thing to protect. I wanted to call and SCREAM at him, I wanted to tell him what bad choices he had made for his son that day, point out all the faults...but I resisted and waited....test, test,test.
Don had Christmas day off this year until his job called this morning bright and butt crack of daylight to tell us our plans had changed...again. Just one more test.
I know it seems funny to put this all out there but maybe typing this all out and the thought put into it will help us stay on the right side of things and not give in to the tests.
I am learning that the best answer isn't always yelling and trying to make people understand me when I am in a rage. It is better to stay calm and edit my mouth. Are there thoughts of telling those I don't like some pretty hateful things not as much but it is there I try to bite my tongue until it passes and stay calm when I talk to those people. It is easy to hate. It is oh so easy to hold grudges but that is not the life I want not the lessons I want to teach my children.
more rambling....so I will close for now. LOVE TO ALL!
1 comment:
Hi Karrie,
This is Cassie's sister-in-law. We met when you guys came to Colorado. I'm so happy to hear of your temple goal. Keep at it sister! It is so worth it! There are days that I too feel as if Satan is looking at Paul and I and is doing everything he can to tear us down, and put distance between us. Sometimes that's hard to recognize in the heat of the moment. Knowing that we will be together for eternity gives me the perspective and motivation to think more about my actions. The spirit definitely has its hand in this. The harder you work toward your goal, the more Satan will try you, but the spirit will also be there to guide you, and Heavenly Father has his eye on your eternal success, and with Him on your side, you guys are a force to be reckoned with. Satan knows that. When I recognize these moments in my life...its just makes me want to do better just so I can show him who's boss! (me) Hang in there!
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