OUCH my everything hurts!

Today was another day to watch a cross country meet. It would have been perfect if it wasn't so hot and on a dirt road in the middle of hells half acre UP hill. It was a true joy to push PJ in her stroller all over watching.
But aside from my few little bitchy things it was great Dylan ran 2 miles in 15mins 3 secs shaving 1min 43 secs off his normal time, placed 5th and got a metal!
PJ was less then a happy baby to drive with today she had a 40 minute screaming fit ALL the way there. She has a cold and is getting more teeth. JOY.
All the kids are doing well and happy. It has been a few weeks since we got to see them and that sucks but they are here now and I can get all caught up. It seems they all change so much in such a short time it feels like we are missing everything even when we do have lots of time with them. Charla is playing soccer again this year, and seems to like it well enough. Kaelyn is back at volleyball and hopes to compete in track. Drew is taking tae kwon do last we were told. Dylan is running cross country and is looking forward to basketball and track. All the big kids are in band and they all seem to love it.
Don and I are happy and doing well.
okay enough with this for today because lack of sleep makes me forget how to type and spell.

Presley Is getting so big! This is her yesterday all dressed up and ready for the day. Looking at this picture makes me smile.

More to come it seems we always have our camera in hand. All the kids are growing so fast. I am so blessed to have all of them in my life.

Amazed

Earlier today I got a call from Dylan's family to inform us of the loss of a young family member. I watched Dylan turn all his energy to PJ he wanted to hold her and play with her even more then he normally does, I think it was his way of dealing. When it was time for me to meet his father I told Dylan to lead with his heart, and maybe sit with his family members and pray, offer them any help that they might need. He looked at me with those beautiful blue eyes and said he wished he could do blessings for his family. And that melted my heart. To see this young man who will always be my little boy saying something so powerful and full of love for family members who don't have the same beliefs we do and often times will talk down about ours but he still has so much love and faith that he would want to share that with them.
I am amazed by Dylan and the strength of his faith. I know that my faith grows watching him become stronger. I am filled with so much joy when we go to church and I get to watch him pass sacrament. I know his love of the church will spread to all who are willing to hear his testimony and how it has changed the both of us. He is wonderful I am so proud to be his mom.

Sleepy me

Ahhh, What a day! I got to watch Dylan run in a cross country meet he came in 15th out of about 25 runners. I am so proud of him, even when he was behind he never just gave up and walked the rest of the 2 miles. Everyday he does something that is amazing to me, Not always good amazing but he is 14 so I guess he is "normal"
Presley went poop in her potty chair at only 13 months old she will say poo poo and pull at her diaper...we RUN to the potty and hope for the best, most times I am too late and she has already gone but we made it tonight.
I got to spend time with my husband and that always makes my life a better place to live. Donald is my best friend and so much more. being married to such a wonderful man is a dream come true.
yeah blah blah blah I know I am boring...what do you want from me I am a stay at home mom and I couldn't be more thankful for all that I have.

WOW

I was listening to a song I really love this morning and have heard a hundred times before. I was talking on the phone and decided I wanted to see the lyrics. The opening quote was heart breaking for me this is what I read "The greatest single cause of atheism in the world today is Christians, who acknowledge Jesus with their lips and walk out the door and deny him with their life style. That is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable."~Brennan Manning.
It really made me think.
What do I show others that might cause confusion?, What can I do to change those things?, How many people can I really reach and aid them in finding truth and faith in heavenly father?.
Now I sit here listening to a room full of children shocked and rather sad because I know that there is a chance no matter how small that one of them might grow to feel confused about Heavenly father and it just seems unfair.
What changes can I make?
I know I can show more love, and kindness. Instead of cursing under my breath about the person who cuts me off on the highway I could just let it pass. What good does it do to yell at them anyway?
I could teach my family that REAL love is the kind that never changes or goes away when times are hard and money is gone.
I could also spend more time listening and less time having them do their chores and being grumpy. The dishes will be fine, they never go away without help there will be time for them when a child doesn't want to talk to me about life.
I could let go of the anger I have for people in our life that we can't just walk away from but I can find some way of emotionally walking away so it doesn't effect the love and peace in our home or the way I advise our children.
I can read the scriptures more and complain about having no time less.
I can set the table and have everyone sit down and talk about whatever their minds think of. Laugh more and spend more time playing with the kids.
I can lead and not just sit back watching time pass.
I can find a place for us to volunteer as a family.
I can tell every child in my life how beautiful and loved they are, be an ear, friend, aunt, mom, whatever they need me to be.
Okay the list is long, now what? I guess it's time for me to start change. I am aware and know there are changes I can make now......JUMP!

the song is by DC Talk it is called what if I stumble.