WOW

I was listening to a song I really love this morning and have heard a hundred times before. I was talking on the phone and decided I wanted to see the lyrics. The opening quote was heart breaking for me this is what I read "The greatest single cause of atheism in the world today is Christians, who acknowledge Jesus with their lips and walk out the door and deny him with their life style. That is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable."~Brennan Manning.
It really made me think.
What do I show others that might cause confusion?, What can I do to change those things?, How many people can I really reach and aid them in finding truth and faith in heavenly father?.
Now I sit here listening to a room full of children shocked and rather sad because I know that there is a chance no matter how small that one of them might grow to feel confused about Heavenly father and it just seems unfair.
What changes can I make?
I know I can show more love, and kindness. Instead of cursing under my breath about the person who cuts me off on the highway I could just let it pass. What good does it do to yell at them anyway?
I could teach my family that REAL love is the kind that never changes or goes away when times are hard and money is gone.
I could also spend more time listening and less time having them do their chores and being grumpy. The dishes will be fine, they never go away without help there will be time for them when a child doesn't want to talk to me about life.
I could let go of the anger I have for people in our life that we can't just walk away from but I can find some way of emotionally walking away so it doesn't effect the love and peace in our home or the way I advise our children.
I can read the scriptures more and complain about having no time less.
I can set the table and have everyone sit down and talk about whatever their minds think of. Laugh more and spend more time playing with the kids.
I can lead and not just sit back watching time pass.
I can find a place for us to volunteer as a family.
I can tell every child in my life how beautiful and loved they are, be an ear, friend, aunt, mom, whatever they need me to be.
Okay the list is long, now what? I guess it's time for me to start change. I am aware and know there are changes I can make now......JUMP!

the song is by DC Talk it is called what if I stumble.