paper roses...

Well Kae's birthday is here again she is 14. For 4 years now I have made paper roses to go along with her gifts no bows really just a rose or two made from wrapping paper on her presents. I will never forget the first time I made them.
It was her first birthday after they split up and we had just come back from Colorado it was Thanksgiving day. We rushed to Wal-Mart in a town 15 miles from where I lived at the time just to try and get her something. Don was a mess. I wrapped gifts for this child I had never met in pink Disney princess paper. When I got done I sat on the floor of my living room and made paper roses from the left over paper. Don watched in silence with tears in his eyes until I finished the last one bunched them up and taped them on top of one of the few boxes he had for her. She is the only person who gets them on her birthday and even now I can't think of anyone I would rather make them for.
I am so thankful to have this memory and the life Don and I have made together.
This simple memory will always have such a special place in my heart and hopefully maybe someday when she is grown I pray I will be able to teach her children to make paper roses for her birthday.

I made her this video. Yes her paper rose for the year is in it. hope you enjoyed watching. Don and I have always sang this song when it come to Kae and I so it was a must do kind of thing. I like making these and plan to make one for each of our children so stay tuned more to come.

My birthday gift for you

Jeff, Cassie and Family
I know I am not the worlds greatest writer. But I always have a million thoughts racing through my mind. Today is a day that I wish I could make them all make sense to more then just me. I wanted to give you part of my world today, and all I have to offer is simple words. I only know memories and pictures of this wonderful girl you love so deeply. I hope that I have done justice to her sweet spirit and can help you smile even if only for a moment. I love you all.

I wrote this based on the picture of Sidney curled on the counter in the sunlight and how it made me feel.

From pictures.
Curled peacefully knowing safety is near by.
Drawing in warmth and light.
Breathing silent love from parents that fills the room
teaching you, without words, how to love.
Smiling ready to explode into this world
and share the light you held within.
Sweetly growing with pure happiness shining in your eyes
Moving through life, leaving peace
where ever you go, little unseen gifts of self,
to comfort from in times of weakness.
Memories flutter through the air like angel kisses
letting everyone know you are still near.

gift for don.

I made this for Don the other day. He really enjoyed it and I hope you do too.

It is made up of pictures of all our children as they have grown since we met.

The word EVERYDAY has many meanings for Don and I we say it often...to us it means I would marry you again today or any other day for the rest of my life. Everyday of my life is yours. I know I know more mushy romance type stuff but I can't and don't want to change the way we feel for each other. The song fits the feeling of our family our life and the way we care for each other..who would have thought that Don would find this kind of love years ago, see a miracle. I never thought that I would love someone as deeply as I do Don. I was told I would never have children and now I have 5 wonderful, smart, loving, great great kids. I never heard the words "I'm proud of you" until I met Don and got to know each of you (what little we do know of each other). So this life, my life, my children, my family, my little world inside of this world is a daily miracle. okay enough I am tearing up now. I hope my rambling makes you smile, and feel my happiness through my words. more to come another day.

It's a great day

I had a wonderful birthday weekend. I got a new cell phone, BEAUTIFUL flowers, a game for my computer, cards, and most importantly I got to have us all together as a family. We got to go trick or treating, had some of our dearest friends over for dinner and laughed ALOT. What more could I ask for? I love getting cards in the mail for my birthday it always makes me feel so special, there is always a card in the mail that tells me someone is proud of me and that they are glad I am part of their lives, this is something I am not used to so I look forward to that I don't care about the gift in the card just what it says because I know it comes from a true place. It was the best birthday ever, I am now 31 and loving it.