The Cocroft kids with the Christmas tree.
YUMMY Christmas Eve Marshmallows

YESSSSS WE GOT A TENT!!!! for our family trip to Colorado.

Kaelyn and I listening to her I-pod.

Me and my shadow.....chillin in the kitchen floor.

I wanted to add some new pictures up. Today was a great day. All the kids were super happy about the camping stuff. They all knew it was for our trip out to Colorado. Presley is getting so big.

well for once I really don't have alot to say.

I love you all.

Tis' the season

For love, thanks, hope and so on
Love love love I am full of it...I LOVE life, everything, everyday, every smile, moment, breath and so on...that's all I have on the love side but it sums it all up pretty well.
I am so thankful for another Christmas with my best friend. When we met we each had our on share of emotional scars. We were broker then broke. But we had a deep newly found love for each other.That first year every gift we got the kids was from everything for a dollar, I got him a DVD player with what little I had "left over" but it was a GREAT holiday. I am thankful for my family I never thought I would have this in my life, before I met Don I was spending more and more time away from my own family off by myself, I felt they were ashamed of me and had reason to not want me there, but now we are very close and I spend as much time as I can with them even if it is just on the phone for hours. My children, what can I say even when they are bad they are still great kids. And I have great in-laws; really not just because you read my crazy ramblings...But because you are a part of my heart now, you have shown me kindness and love. I am thankful for memories, I have so many great ones that I don't know where to start so I won't try. I am thankful for the church. I have found joy beyond words. I have watched friends take lessons and become members, I have shared my experiences and my testimony with friends and family in hopes that someday they will become members too. In moments of trouble I know where to turn now instead of drinking until I could no longer feel(that costs too much and isn't very healthy).
~insert boo hoo~I am a real emotional little creature~
Right now I am hopeful that Don and I will find our way in our journey to quit smoking. I know it will happen but we want to be smoke free by the time (at the latest) that we go to Colorado for the family trip. Sometimes that seems to be coming quickly and this fight to stop is so hard. I have walked away from many bad things in my life and this is the hardest. I know we can do it. I feel like a turd when I lecture my kids about not doing it and then go have a smoke...uh yeah no logic in that really.
I am so excited to go camping this spring and summer. We want to do more as a family away from the TV and our butts. It just feels right to have time like this to get away from it all and make more lasting memories. I HOPE TO GO FISHING THIS YEAR!!!! I lived in a small town before I moved here with Don and I got to go fishing all the time, I love it...I miss it...I want to go this year. I wasn't always prissy I used to go frogging and fishing -yes I can clean and cook em!
I hope this year brings peace into many hearts.
okay PJ is crying THE UPSIDE DOWN SHOW is over now and she is finally ready for bed. Don left for work a little bit ago so we are up late... she was screaming for daddy and bye byes. So for now I must go. Hope you enjoyed the read.
=) Merry Christmas (=

Testing Testing

I was told by a woman at a yard sale we had that one time she had heard " If Satan isn't testing you and your faith he must be leading you or walking beside you". And honestly right now I am kind of feeling like it is time for him to move on and start testing else where. It feels like this past year as been one test after another and while I want to crawl in my bed and hide out until the storm passes I refuse to give up. I refuse to just feel okay there is nothing that will change this there is no way to make it better or make it all work out. I don't know why sometimes we feel picked on. (Ha funny visual big spooky devilish type chasing after my family like a bully on the play ground.) I don't know when we will get a break from it all, but in a way I am thankful for the testing, it shows me that we must be on the right track. It shows me that the more we try to reach our goal of going to the temple the more we get thrown at us to try and set that goal back one more day, year, whatever....GIVE UP mister Satan man, we are not yours to take, have, keep whatever our family belongs to heavenly father.
most recent testing...
Last night Dylan came home from his dads with saw dust in his eye so off to the ER we went to find that it had scratched it. He had been working cutting down trees with nothing to eat ALL day long and "forgot" to give him his meds. He will be fine but I wish his father would protect him more. he wants to join the Coast guard and his eyes are the most important thing to protect. I wanted to call and SCREAM at him, I wanted to tell him what bad choices he had made for his son that day, point out all the faults...but I resisted and waited....test, test,test.
Don had Christmas day off this year until his job called this morning bright and butt crack of daylight to tell us our plans had changed...again. Just one more test.
I know it seems funny to put this all out there but maybe typing this all out and the thought put into it will help us stay on the right side of things and not give in to the tests.
I am learning that the best answer isn't always yelling and trying to make people understand me when I am in a rage. It is better to stay calm and edit my mouth. Are there thoughts of telling those I don't like some pretty hateful things not as much but it is there I try to bite my tongue until it passes and stay calm when I talk to those people. It is easy to hate. It is oh so easy to hold grudges but that is not the life I want not the lessons I want to teach my children.
more rambling....so I will close for now. LOVE TO ALL!